Sunday, November 28, 2010

Under Pressure (whine whine whine)

Tomorrow brings the beginning of week 24 and I've yet to feel even a modicum of excitement about the impending arrival of the little dude. Between the shock of the situation, multiple grand parents croaking, T-day and a brutal short work week (hello 14 hour days with no time for meals, but plenty of time for monumental stress) I can't get to a place where I feel like everything's going to be ok and is working out like it should.

This is due in part to the fact that K and I aren't married. Yeah, we're doing this totally out of order, but when your collective parents (and grand/soon to be great grandparents) are old school Oklahomans, this is a stumbling block. I learned that basically neither set of parents is excited or happy (in spite of the fact that K and I have been in a committed relationship for at least three years... and are 28 and 29 respectively, we're not 18) and very concerned because we're unmarried and not ready (duh, anyone who says they're absolutely ready to have a baby is a fucking liar - it's impossible!). I'm not sure if they think one of us is going to bail on the other leaving them to pick up the slack or if they don't want to share the news since instead of us being husband and wife we're boyfriend and girlfriend or what, but it feels super shitty to not have your family behind you 100% during a time like this. Yeah, it's not ideal, but it's not like we're the only people who've found themselves in this situation. I can't imagine that we wouldn't have headed down this path anyway, so what if we headed down it in reverse? Big deal.

In any case, I still barely have a bump (which is fine as long as everything's checking out ok!) and have had pretty much zero symptoms, but dang, this week brought out the weepiness in me something fierce. There's so much to do, so little time, and even less money. The next four months are going to be a shit show, but it will all be worth it in the end, right? RIGHT?


Katherine said...

Yes it will all be worth it! (not that I speak from experience, but I truly believe it will be worth it!)

Todd and I are excited for you and Keaton! and when it gets closer, if you'd like, we would be happy to host a baby shower for you!

blythe said...

thanks katherine! i think i just need to remind the parents that k and i are (semi) adults and everything's going to work out ok and they can tell their friends we're all legitimate soon enough, but some things we have to do on our own terms. in the meantime, i'd forgotten the whole baby shower thing! i don't even know how those work!

Anonymous said...

Two bright, loving people. I dunno, I think adding a baby to the mix sounds kinda like a good idea.

Congrats, guys. -christal